Small task that one would believe is simple.
Somehow in the mess of this beautiful life I have been given I have grown ungrateful of the blessings around me. I waited years…YEARS for my amazing husband and a big family. And then suddenly, when it was God’s timing not my own, when I was finally content, my life changed. The past year has been one of stretching, adjusting and blending. I downsized out of one life and up-sized into another one. And yet there are times where the old me tries her hand at living the new me’s life.
I have always thought of myself as a traditionalist. I wife of noble character. The women who wanted to wear the skirt in the family but not the pants. You know, the homemade bread eater. This fixer of all things and not just the cheerleader. The one who knows it all and is the best. The green giant, freaking the hulk of the underworld of my soul. You have an idea of a budget, well let me tell you my way is the ONLY WAY ((giggles… insert poor husband hidden eye roll here)). When God tells me that His answer is NO, control freak old me steps in.
And so I FREAK OUT. Kind of loose grip of the reality of all of these blessings that are around me. And I think how am I ever going to find the balance between the old me and the new me? Well insert podcast here. I listened to a sermon this morning on a podcast from a minister from South Africa and I was reminded of one very important thing.
“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness: and all these things shall be added unto you.”
When I keep GOD first, when I seek Him, when I give HIM time with me, when I allow Him to stay the head in my heart, before even my most amazing husband; then all the other things fall into place. Those little things like, time with our children, less TV, date night, the dishes, the dinners, the grocery shopping, the work outs. When I put God first I’m not so easily swayed by the different trend food plans, silly exercise videos, self-help Christian style books. When I put God first then everything will fall into place. When Jesus Christ is Lord of my life then my emotions are not as easily frayed, my patience for my children will grow, my self-control to make time to go for that run will happen, and you know what even if it is bland PB&J sandwiches, if we are all together as a family does it even really matter? When Christ is first the stress about the bills, the many many projects that never end, the balance of trying to do it all, will all amazingly fall into the proper place and perspective. Because the one who is supposed to be FIRST will be in his proper place.
Why do I make the answer to all of my questions, my hurts, my doubts and fears so difficult, when HIS answers are so blissfully simple? Maybe this time I’ll remember. I asked God for a fresh vision for my life and this is what HE has shown me!